2025 November 29: 10:04
it's snowing, gamers!!! me and my gf went for an early morning walk in the falling snow and it was awesome 🩷
also, apparently the 3DS version of Terraria is considered the worst one? I love it, personally. but that's probably because i experienced it on 3DS first. just like with SNES doom, being my first introduction to Doom, i played that one through to the end and loved every minute of it. one thing that's really helpful is that you hang onto your inventory when you load into someone else's world. also, you're not restricted to the world you created alongside your character, you can go into any of them. this is good because my world of Woodwood is now out of... would you believe it? Wood! so i'm going to pillage some stuff from my other world, West Eastfold.
talking of things that sound like Westfold, the activity log tells me i haven't loaded up animal crossing new leaf since 20th April. 7 months and 9 days that is. i think i just need to start over at this stage... goodbye, westfold :'(
2025 November 25: 03:49
my girlfriend has introduced me to terraria for 3ds. i think i've found a replacement for doom in the "unhealthy videogame addiction" department. i'll do a gamelog about it sometime.
2025 November 23: 08:27
Bedbugs. Where did they come from? Why won't they go? My gf and i discovered a colony along the skirting board this morning and both our skeletons want to crawl out of our skins now. So many horror stories, I can't tell fact from fiction. SOmeone on tumblr says they had to tear the wallboard out and exterminate down the framing joists. Someone else says their landlord was told by a tenant they had bedbugs and so the landlord may or may not have had the building burned down and collected the insurance money. All I know for certain is, if we tell our landlord we have them, we'll be out on our asses before you can say "fresh fruit for rotting vegetables". Whatever we do needs to be done in secret, because I know for a fact the guy across the carpark had them and 2 days later he was gone. Whatever we do is going to run into money, which we don't have. Great. THIS is how I wanted to spend my morning.
2025 November 21: 11:38
loads of tiny little real life things making web development generally infeasible. first, me and my gf have been pretty sick for about a week. she's pretty sure she knows where she picked this germ up from, and then passed it to me when we kissed (i don't care though because i love her more than i like being healthy). also we've been running loads of errands and playing a lot of 3DS games. she really seems to like animal crossing new leaf, which is making me think about how i kind of abandoned Westfold. resetti is going to nick me for this, but if i can remember when the last time was i loaded it up, i can change my calendar settings back to it and not have to see my little town as a barren wasteland. i remember talking once about remodelling my house from an office into a mall food court or convenience store. i had also considered a backyard at one point. all of this was probably going to involve one of the ACNL save editors in order to give myself the right items. of course, i could just as easily start a new town entirely.
2025 November 15: 17:53
I know i haven't been around a lot lately, but that's for a good reason. I cant tell you why just now, but I'm still alive, my gf is doing good too, i STILL havent finished the halloweek viewing log, and i havent written any new music lately. I did draw something, but im not real sure how best to display it. I would rather not code anymore because Im on my phone and writing HTML on a phone is right next to waterboarding as a method of torture.
2025 November 11: 09:48
I think I've worried all I can. It's time to be excited about this. Riza and I are going to live together!!! She can leave her abusive dad and manipulative mum behind and look forward to a clean, loving home with a girlfriend who will do almost anything for her. It's a so-called "Red state", sure, but I've lived here long enough to know all the tricks by heart.
2025 November 10: 00:32
i feel like ive scrubbed my fingerprints off and put half a kilogram of dust in my nose. i am never letting my room get so neglected ever again!
2025 November 9: 05:07
Holy... I've been cleaning all night! Well, except for the bit where I was playing EarthBound on call with Riza. I don't think I've sat down in 3 hours! It's not like I live in filth, it's just that I have a few areas of my flat that I've been neglecting for a while. Surfaces mostly, but also under my bed and a few other places. Like I said, I want her to come into a clean and welcoming home, and that means cleaning off my printer shelf for the first time since COVID.
2025 November 8: 22:30
She has fhe ticket. It's really happening, gamers!! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
I'm equal parts excited, overjoyed, and nervous beyond belief! But Riza will finally be safe, away from her abusive, gaslighting family, and I'll have the happy life I always wanted.
I love her so much... 💕
I'm so grateful to everyone who made this possible. Thank you for your donations and your words of support. None of this could have happened without you! 😊
2025 November 8: 18:10
there's going to be a little more of a delay. first, paypal was being a little bitch and not transferring the money instantly despite her paying an extra $13 to make it so, now the transit website doesnt want to take her money. i hope everything can get cleared up soon, i want to see my girlfriend! T-T
im going to make practical use of the time though. i still have loads more cleaning and clothes washing to do. also this gives more time for the new bed to get here. its gonna take about 2 weeks longer for the fitted sheet than the mattress, which i find kind of odd but not entirely unexpected from online shopping.
2025 November 7: 08:25
I know I said I didn't need to worry about her anymore (did I say that here? I've been posting on so many websites over the past 12 hours), but that wasn't correct. She isn't here yet. I'm going to keep worrying about her until I can leap into her arms and kiss her. There's a lot of time and a lot of distance between now and then.
2025 November 7: 06:18
I still can't believe I'm not dreaming. This has to be a dream. How else can you explain my life suddenly becoming so perfect? How else can you explain that I fell so hopelessly in love with the perfect girl and that she's going to be here in time for us to celebrate Hanukkah together? Some part of me keeps expecting I'll wake up from this dream with a nagging feeling of regret and loneliness like I usually get from dreams like this. But the parts that make logical decisions are all proclaiming from the mountaintops for all to hear, "THIS IS REAL!" This is real. Oh, I'm gonna cry again... bye for now.
2025 November 7: 06:00
Ok, slight snag. We ran afoul of one of the traps that Donald Treason laid in the American air traffic system. It turns out that Riza hasn't got the right ID type to fly (DESPITE THE FACT SHE'S WHITE AND SHE WAS BORN IN THIS COUNTRY, FUCK TRUMP UP THE ARSE AND BACK FROM HERE TIL DOOMSDAY). Anyway, that put up a little roadblock, but we have other avenues to explore. Right now, we're looking at a bus trip, which is going to be WAY less expensive than we anticipated ($230 as opposed to $600), so the excess will go to either helping her get some climate-appropriate clothes and diet-appropriate food; or to her medical debt from her Old Life.
Everyone's been so generous, I want to repay that with a little transparency about how your money is being used.
2025 November 7: 00:11
this is so great. riza went to bed tonight feeling trapped, and she's going to wake up into freedom. we owe it all to our little support network on neocities and tumblr. you all are so great!
🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵 Love wins 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵
2025 November 6: 23:47
welp, it's official now, gamers. i just bought a mattress for us to sleep on. we're really gonna live together!!
incidentally, i did not use any of the money donated to the plane ticket fund to buy this; i used some of the money in my savings account which was originally intended for repairing the sedan. since i don't have that car anymore i decided to put that money to different use instead.
2025 November 6: 11:17
i love her so much, chat 🥰💕
2025 November 6: 09:26
Riza and I had our first kinda-sleepover (ie. we stayed on the phone with each other all night); we both played videogames and watched stuff because she figured out how to stream video over nextcloud. This whole thing was made possible by the fact I no longer have my phone charger set somewhere arbitrary and stupid in my room, but right next to my bed. So yeah, we kinda slept together*, 2 timezones apart. Yay us!
(* "slept" being the operative word in this case; the past-tense of "sleep". "SNORK-mimimimi" time, as opposed to anything else that "slept together" might mean)
2025 November 4: 08:23
Good things that have happened so far this week:
Yeah! Good week so far! 🩷
2025 November 1: 14:33
Well, if the antivax conspiracy elevation, deplatforming of Neil Young, genAI training, face scanning, wage theft, and CEO being on the board of a Zionist defence contractor wasn't enough to get you off Spotify, then the music streaming giant's new run of American ICE recruitment adverts probably won't either, because at this stage, if you can take all of that and still be on Spotify, you're just a consumerist meat-robot with no hopes or desires of your own.